People always say new beginnings are good. New beginnings are exciting, full of surprises, adventurous, a chance to try different things, find out more about so and so, blah blah blah…
But what if you’re tired of starting over, starting fresh, making new adjustments and getting used to what you are not used to? What if you’re scared because you don’t know if you’ll make it again, if you’ll have supporters, helpers, what if you are uncertain and unready for another jump, another big step?
We have four more days left of high school and we’re scared, at least some of us. Let me change that back to “I”. I am scared, not because I don’t trust myself, not because I think I’ll lose myself again. I’m scared because I have to get used to it. Whatever that it will be.
I got used to America, I got used to being away from home, from people I love, I got used to it all and damn it…I’m just tired of doing it all over again.