The blue sky in front of me stretches farther than I can see. I don’t want to think and I’m not thinking today. I’m listening to music and I’m not here. I’m looking out the car window…everything looks peaceful, the clouds, the trees, the houses. But the calamity in my head, the hackneyed thoughts that were never recycled, the desperation of wanting to break through the glass window, through the traffic..
Stop.
I see a plane above me and I pretend I’m inside it. I pretend there are no unresolved issues, no worries, no uncertainties…I hate uncertainties.
I’m somewhere else today…and I don’t know where, I don’t care where. I’m not crying. Life is too short. I’m just taking a break from thinking. I’m going to listen to another song…I’m going to escape, just for tonight…