Broken promises

There are promises we make in life. We make promises to our families, our friends, our neighbors, our children, and even ourselves.
I promised myself certain things. I set rules. I made goals that I would not give up, erase, and certainly would not forget.
But what if you have to break your own promises? How do you live with yourself? How do you convince yourself that it’s okay, that it’s just another broken promise?
I’m alone in my head. I have to live with my doubts, my own hesitations, my own battles. I try to fight, but I don’t always win. When I lose a battle, I’m left in a sea of doubt. I’m lost. I’m powerless against myself…I can’t bear it…I can’t stand it… I can’t…
Today I’m fighting…I’m fighting hard…and…

Elle

The first thing I think about when I wake up is coffee. I love the smell, but I mostly love the comfort it provides. It makes me forget what is happening in the outside world. It makes me feel okay. It reminds me that I am alive and that I have a lot to be thankful for.

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  1. hairofthedawg
    March 20, 2006 at 4:51 am

    Right at this particular moment I’d suggest that you join me for a cider and enjoy the incredible sound coming from this sound system I spent way too much money on, but that’s kind of beside the point. I’d still say the same thing though.
    It’s the Cars, “Candy-O”…way before your time but it’s kind of thoughtful and a bit minimalistic…a little weird but fun to listen to. It brings out the clarity of my equipment.
    For some reason the following verse rang true…not sure why yet “It’s All I Can do”
    You wait in the wings,
    like a Saturday flirt,
    protecting the judge,
    you don’t want to get hurt
    And once in a moment,
    it all comes to you,
    soon as you get it,
    you want something new
    Embarrassingly, I remember myself preening before a mirror and playing air-keyboards to the song, but again I’m not getting to my point. You need to go for it Lili. I’ve broken so many promises I can’t count. In fact, I should be in the gym right now. It’s not a bad thing, but perhaps you take yourself too seriously. Acknowledge failure in order to not repeat it but don’t dwell on it other than to learn how to overcome it next time.
    Life’s too short for that.
    I wish I had your vision way back when…
    cheers,
    Dick

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