6 More days until the day I will cleberate my 15th year in this world of wonders. I can not be any happier! I have been on earth for 15 years and I have seen so many many things, it will take forever to write them down. The most important thing I’ve learned is no one and nothing in this world is perfect. But you can make the best out of what there is and what you have. I have lived a life in two countries and I have seen people from all around the world. I have had great, sweet memories, I have had sad ones. There were things I did not wish to see, there were times of pain. There were sweet dreams, there were the worst. To me life is just one big game full of surprises. I am trying to make the best out of my life and I am trying to become somebody in this game.

I woke up this morning, with the hope of snow. I was right. It did snow. The first snow of the year. I was merrily happy, and I still am.
I love snow, but I hate rain. Snow is white,soft,holds a different tune. It is joyful to watch. I walked outside and felt it under my feet. I looked around me and the place seemed a different place. I could hardly recognize our street. I walked back home happily,smiling for each step into the snow.

We drove to Ocean-city on Friday night. A city by the sea,with not alot of crowd. So cold and windy,but it was ok. We spent the night at a small motel. A quiet place,though the room was freezing cold! Thank God it had a heater. As we were driving to the city,inside our car,I was laying back,watching the trees go past us,like shadows. Today,Saturday,we drove to the sea,very cold,we walked a little and went back to pack our things. Afterwards we had a chance to visit Anapolis,the capital of Maryland. It was like European cities. Nice and fancy with shops and nice houses. We went back home then,I was glad.

There is nothing in my mind,I can not put any words in this page. Sometimes it is hard to think of something to write about. But in reality there are so many things in my mind that I can not even name. Everything at some point clusters in my brain and will not leave me alone. I become so desperate to make them go away.

Sometimes,before I fall asleep, I think of all the memories from my past. All the good times and bad times. I close my eyes and try to picture them in my head.Though I feel like it wasn’t me. They are so far away from me,the memories,that it is hard to believe it was me. A life can be so different in two countries so far away. I’ve been feeling homesick for 3 years. Thinking of my home,just brings me to tears and saddens me. How much I miss it,I can’t say.And it seems almost impossible to think of going back.

Where are you on this planet? Some of us don’t even know yet. We just live for what there is, we do not care about the actual reason for our existence. Why do we exist anyway? To get good sense of how it feels to be alive? To work ourselves to death? Why then do we exist? Where are we?
Maybe there is not an answer for every qestion that is in our minds right now. Maybe some things are really unexplainable.

I have not written for quiet a long time. Well I was pretty busy with life,that’s the only reason. Or there were times that I didn’t feel like writing and nothing interesting came to my mind. But hopefully things will reach my mind again!
Sunday,sunny day, cool and windy
Today we had a visit to a park in Richmond. A nice place by the mountains. It was nice,though very windy. And cold,ofcourse. But the most important thing was the view.An amazing view I say,big mountains,lots of trees with red and yellow leaves. AWESOME!

What ? Dreams?Work?Education?Fun?Ups and downs? Memories?Boredom?
Everything you can name. It is just the way it is and the way it will be forever,unless some day it all ends. Who knows if there is a day that it’ll all end,who knows if we have to go on and on forever until our soul is in the heavens. Time is priceless.It is infinite,goes forever but flies fast.Therefore it is golden. Your minutes and seconds are what makes up your whole life. You could be dancing all night,or reading all day. Gossping for an hour or praying day by day. Watching t.v for two hours and not remembering a thing afterwards. Anything you do counts and makes up your life. You think you have a lot of time,but you really don’t. Make something out of it then,do something so you can remember you did it. So you can use it for the future.Time is really running by.And life is full of it!