I am lost in a sea of sadness, mixed with nostalgia, and loneliness. Yet when I think of those who love me, it seems as though there is a boat that will rescue me. But sometimes I don?t see a boat and I feel as though I?m drowning. I?
I dried my hair, I polished my nails, I wore three rings and two bracelets, and I told myself that I am going to be happy. I will be happy because life is sweet and I?m 16 years old and I will never be 16 again. And it is good to be alive.

As I?m typing this, I feel very silly, but this is the only way I can let my feelings out.
I?m going to eat now. I?m not lost anymore. At least, not yet.

Outside our window is white. The trees are white, the ground is white, but the sky is a pale blue. Snow is everywhere, but the wind blows and pushes it away. The beautiful snow: another creation of Mother Nature. It seems so simple when you get up and see the world around you white as a ghost, and then the news reporter tells you that your school is closed. So then, you go back to sleep, without wondering about anything else that might be happening around the world, or even in your own building. All you care about is that you don?t have school to worry about, and you can get all the sleep you want. But is that it? Is that really satisfying to you? Don?t you want something more? Something you can hold on to, instead of the snow flakes that melt in your hands?
Go through life the way you go through a beautiful snowy day when nothing worried you. When life gets tough, and when you run out of support, think of that snowy morning that made you happy. Think of how beautiful life is, with and without the snow. Maybe you have your whole family gathered around you, to keep you safe and happy, and to keep you warm. Or maybe you just have a loving friend that makes sure you?re okay. Whoever it is, there must be at least one person that gives you hope. Don?t let your hopes melt along with the snow. Keep dreaming, keep hoping, and one day things will change.

It’s been weeks that I’ve wanted to write something, but nothing interested me.
So today, I thought why not write about the snow we’ve got. It is very cold outside and the ground is filled with snow. The snow started last night, while I was watching the Golden Globe Awards. I already have tomorrow off also because of teacher-work day. Anyway it is an okay day, I have a cup of tea by my side, and our place is warm and cozy. I talked to my sister today, but like always had nothing much to say. It is very hard to talk deep from the heart to someone you love on the phone.

Some of the winners from the Golden Globes

I feel parted from my sister and brother. While my brother got engaged, my dad and I were here. I saw pictures when my mom came back and cried from happiness. I wished so much that I could have been there. So many years I’ve been growing up without them, and they have grown up without us. I don’t know everything about them. But I always feel them in my heart. Maybe one day we can be together again. I feel so lucky to have them.

The first day back to school was very difficult. Actually the whole week was. And my mother wasn’t there to help me out. One thing I noticed was no one had really changed. The ones who were immature were still immature, and the ones who were mature had stayed mature. I thought maybe the start of the new year would make them change a little. My new year’s resolution was to worry less, but I did the exact opposite when I started school again. Anyway, mom is coming back on Monday so I’m very happy.

I want peace for the whole world. I want people to see beyond guns and missiles to solve problems. I want them to find words instead. I want them to help others without asking if they need it. I want those in need of help accept it and be greatful.
Let the light of sun
and a child’s laughter
fill the day
instead of the news of war
instead of the death that could have been stopped
If we can make so many new creations
why not make peace
the one thing every human asks for:
world peace

A new year begins. I say good-bye to 2003 and hope for a great new year. Hopefully this coming year will not include war or natural disasters, but peace, security, and safety all over the world. I don’t have many wishes. I just want peace, happiness, and my family. The last time we were all together was in 1995. Anyway, welcome 2004.

Many lost their lives from Friday’s massive earthquake in Iran. Innocent people died in the small town of Bam. I was shocked by the terrible news, and yet I could do nothing but pray. They lost their loved-ones, their homes, their children, and their land. They might have been sleeping, or simply having dinner. Then a sudden earthquake teared their whole life, their whole future.
Every night when I go to sleep, I am aware of the roof I’m under, and I know I’m safe. That sense of saftey comes from knowing that my parents are with me, knowing that God is there, and many other reasons. But not everyone has that sense or the safety itself. Maybe there is a way to change that. Maybe some day everyone can feel safe and be safe. We should all help make that change.