Is it okay to day dream about something you know won’t come true?
Is it okay to fantasize when you know it’s just a fantasy?
Sometimes I want some things to be true…even when they’re out of reach…I say to myself ‘so what’s wrong with a little day dreaming?’
Yeah, in the end I get hurt, but so what?
There are some things that happen early in life for some and later for others…for me it will be later…you know…love…not even that…it’s just a simple crush…anyway…
The days are so slow…I just want to get out of here…step into an airplane and go to…Spain, Italy, France…anywhere really…
I think I might go to New York…move there I mean…who knows…for now life is just what it is…i can’t change it…I…

I was so in love last night…so in love with the stars, the night sky and the sound of love…in love with the night of New York City…I didn’t want to come back to Virginia…because it’s a lonely city…I love people…I love New York…just the way I loved Tehran…
You have to hold on to things…they can easily slip out of your hands…you will never have the moments back…that’s just life…I’ve held on to some memories…I’ve refused to let them go…
I am happy but my heart aches sometimes…a deep ache for so many things…for things I fantasize…for things I lost…for things I will never have…
It was a short trip…my school trip to NYC…but I loved it and I didn’t want to leave the city…you feel less like an outsider in the city…your forget that you’re different…you just blend in… like camouflage

In a small burger house, hungrily waiting for chicken fillet to arrive

The city-slanted picture

I don’t know how this year passed by…it went slowly yet quickly…i hated it and i loved…some days were disconcerted and confusing…some days i just wanted to quit…but on occasion i loved many days…and now it is finally ending…i am getting older and there are so many things that a normally 17-year-old would have done by now…but i didn’t do those things…i don’t drive yet, in fact i don’t even have my permit yet (gasp…)but don’t worry i will get it this summer, i didn’t get a job…but don’t worry i’ll do that too…
gosh, what did i do?? and i spent at least an hour everyday complaining about everything…but i thanked god too for all that he has given me…sometimes i still wonder why he did and does…
there are days that you think you’ve had enough of everything, but in the big picture there is never enough of everything…there are so many things that i myself can not wait to do, wait to see, and even though some days i just want to melt or disappear, i still want to be around…it’s still exciting, even though i can’t do much on my own and i depend (oh god) i depend so many people, i still think it is worth the ride!