We drove to Ocean-city on Friday night. A city by the sea,with not alot of crowd. So cold and windy,but it was ok. We spent the night at a small motel. A quiet place,though the room was freezing cold! Thank God it had a heater. As we were driving to the city,inside our car,I was laying back,watching the trees go past us,like shadows. Today,Saturday,we drove to the sea,very cold,we walked a little and went back to pack our things. Afterwards we had a chance to visit Anapolis,the capital of Maryland. It was like European cities. Nice and fancy with shops and nice houses. We went back home then,I was glad.

There is nothing in my mind,I can not put any words in this page. Sometimes it is hard to think of something to write about. But in reality there are so many things in my mind that I can not even name. Everything at some point clusters in my brain and will not leave me alone. I become so desperate to make them go away.

Sometimes,before I fall asleep, I think of all the memories from my past. All the good times and bad times. I close my eyes and try to picture them in my head.Though I feel like it wasn’t me. They are so far away from me,the memories,that it is hard to believe it was me. A life can be so different in two countries so far away. I’ve been feeling homesick for 3 years. Thinking of my home,just brings me to tears and saddens me. How much I miss it,I can’t say.And it seems almost impossible to think of going back.

Where are you on this planet? Some of us don’t even know yet. We just live for what there is, we do not care about the actual reason for our existence. Why do we exist anyway? To get good sense of how it feels to be alive? To work ourselves to death? Why then do we exist? Where are we?
Maybe there is not an answer for every qestion that is in our minds right now. Maybe some things are really unexplainable.

I have not written for quiet a long time. Well I was pretty busy with life,that’s the only reason. Or there were times that I didn’t feel like writing and nothing interesting came to my mind. But hopefully things will reach my mind again!
Sunday,sunny day, cool and windy
Today we had a visit to a park in Richmond. A nice place by the mountains. It was nice,though very windy. And cold,ofcourse. But the most important thing was the view.An amazing view I say,big mountains,lots of trees with red and yellow leaves. AWESOME!