September 2002

Sometimes I am in a totally different place. I am lost in my own thoughts and for a second I feel like I am somewhere else. Has this ever happened to you? When you wish to be elsewhere and you keep thinking and thinking until you are lost! Or you look at a picture of your vacation and you want so much to be there.

Read more

If you ask me I would say that I love Iran. Because I was born and raised there,because it was where I took my first step,said the first word and saw life for the first time.My memories are hidden in every street and every corner. My laughter is recorded in our house. The sound of every step is recorded and I can hear it even now. Noises,the cars,the construction of a building right infront of us. I can close my eyes and see myself walking on that same street of ours,to the same door,to the same brown house with the basement. I can walk up those steps again,reach the first floor and knock on my uncle’s door.Then I can walk to the second floor and then the third,ours. I can go in,there is a mirror right infront and a long carpet. I can call my sister and brother and they’ll come.
I love Iran because it is where I first learned to see how life is,its steepness and its hills.How to live with others and not hate them because of their looks,try to be friendly even if dislike them. I saw life in a different way that it is now,I never imagined someday I would end up here. I never thought that one day I would have to leave everything behind. I never thought that I would pack everything and just go. I never thought of being miles and miles away. But now that I am here and now that I am ready to live here,I can go on, I have to go on.

Read more

When you feel afraid of your surroundings,your own thoughts,other’s comments and thoughts,there is nothing left for you but despair.
You feel you want to be free from the words,you don’t want to hear anything,see anything,know anything.Even your own thoughts and imaginations that lead you to despair. You are suddenly afraid of your own being,afraid of your every step,every word,every little movement.You think every person around you is watching you,you can’t move,you feel like nothing. You are nothing to anyone,anything.But then a sudden spark comes to your brain and you are out of the nightmare.

Read more

I was staring at the clock almost the whole time in Chemistry class. Though it was not responding to my commands! My mind was on that clock.Which took a very small piece of the classroom but at the same time it was the most important thing in there,which made it look bigger. I was hoping it would move faster and faster but it was taking its time,laughing at me! It finally reached 2:05 and the bell rang.

Read more

I saw on the t.v screen the world trade center standing tall
A moment later I saw a plane coming by
It hit the building so suddenly,that i didnot have time to realize
At first i didn’t get what happened
It was like a movie,a sight so amazing
Then I realized what was going on
I still couldnot believe my eyes
After everything became clear, it was so sad to think it through
The people in the plane,the ones inside the building…
It was a day no one will forget

Read more

The following words have been written by someone but I do not remember the name.I have translated his words from Farsi to English.
1
I love you not because of who you are but because of who you make me when i’m with you.
2
No one deserves your tears and whoever does will not make you cry.
3
If someone does not love you the way you want them to,it does not mean that they don’t love you with all their heart.
4
A real friend is one who holds your hands but touches your heart.
5
The worst way of missing someone is being with them and knowing you cannot reach them.(become like them)
6
Never miss a smile,even if you are sad because someone might fall in love with your smile.
7
You could be only one person in the world,but for some you are the whole world.
8
Never spend your time with someone who does not want to spend time with you.
9
Maybe God wants you to meet a lot of wrong people and then the right person.So when you find that person you can be more thankful.
10
Do not be sad for things that are gone,smile to the things that will come.
11
There are always people who bother you,though trust others and becareful not to trust the ones that have bothered you.
12
Turn yourself into a better person and you can be sure that you will know yourself before you meet someone else. And that person will know you.
13
Don’t put too much pressure on yourself, the best things happen when you are not expecting them.

Read more

I just talked to my cousin on the phone. Oh it’s so nice to hear someone’s voice after such a long time. I haven’t seen her in 3 years.
I miss her very much,that’s why a letter or a phone call from her makes me so happy!

Read more

I ask a question but there is no answer
There is not an answer for every question is there?
That is why there are so many mysterys in our lives
Because not every question can be answered

Read more

Why is it that whenever something bad happens we remember it?,though there are times when they are forgotten. It is as if they never completely leave our minds but hide somewhere and then one day come back again to our memories. I try to forget the bad things, I try to forget about the past and be in the present. Sometimes we are so involved of the things that had happened before that we don’t even remember we are living in the present.

Read more

I can imagine so many things,things that will be kept forever and ever.By imagination one can change everything. Imagination has a lot of power, a strong deep power that will never last.It is true to say that it is a powerful tool in the toolbox of magic. You can have anything your heart desires by just imagining that you have it.Never forget that it might come true,your imagination,your wish. Simply keep it and don’t loose it. And remember it cannot hurt you but it can heal your sense of pain,of loneliness,your fears and you sadness.

Read more