In the online world, speaking is so easy, so informal, so flexible. There are no eyes to watch out for, no stares, no judges, no juries, just you and a screen. You can laugh without the noise, you can smile without the teeth, you can even cry without tears. You don’t have to be afraid to write the words you don’t really mean. You don’t have to be afraid to have your feelings hurt. There are disguises that you can display. You don’t even have to be you…
Online, I’m known by certain screen names, certain smiley faces. But offline, I have to play my part. I have to be me, right at that moment. whether I want the role or not, I play my part, almost automatically…
Sometimes I wish my world was online so I could just be me…maybe what I really need to do is change what’s inside my head, what tells me what to do or what not to do when I’m not sitting in front of a computer screen. Maybe I…
I shut the computer off…for now there is no way out…the other part of me is now offline, invisible, simply unavailable.